Thursday, May 8, 2008

I Would Die For That

So, I couldn't figure out how to post this so you could just push play. This was the next best thing. If you get a chance, watch this video! Of course, I was in tears, and when you watch it you'll see why. Especially after my long post about how we finally got pregnant!

Our it finally happened

I have been getting a lot of questions on how we finally got pregnant and what finally worked. So, here it is, the story of our miracle. In Decemeber 2006, I did a radio-active Iodine treatment to "kill" off my thryoid. I was diagnosed in Nov '06 with Grave's Disease, which contributed to me being Hyperthyroid. So, the safest option was to kill it off, be locked in my bedroom for 3 days, which by killing it off now would make me be Hypothyroid. I gained a lot of weight, was up and down with mood swings, and tired all the time, oh and wasn't able to get pregnant. My poor husband was so amazing through all of this, I'm still surprised he stayed by my side through it all. I know that I wasn't the nicest person and I took a lot out on him. It has made us stronger and has made me a better person. :o) We just kept saying, "And this too shall pass." So, after months and months of trying, we finally decided to see what our options were. In Sept. '07, we started Intra-uterine Insemination (IUI). After three months of it not working, our doctor decided to do the IUI two days in a row (Dec '07). When Jan. '08 came and we still were not prego, we decided to look at other options. Knowing we only had two more months of IUI, they recommend that you try IUI for 6 months, then if it doesn't work you can look into adoption or try In-Virto. So, we met with our Case Worker at LDS Family Services on Jan. 9th and were trying to schedule an appt. with an adoption agency called CASI. Anyway, we got our paperwork and were excited to get started on the Adoption process. It was hard at first to think that I wasn't going to go through a pregnancy or see what mine and Tagg's babies would look like. It was something we had prayed and fasted about and felt that we should keep an open mind and look at adoption as an option. We had told our Bishop that we were thinking about Adoption and he offered to give us a blessing. He gave us great counsel and our blessings were amazing. That same day, Jan 11th, we went in for an IUI as well as Jan. 12th. We also had my blood tested again to see where my Thyroid levels were at. A week later we found out that my levels were not where they should be and that the IUI probably didn't work. Our Dr. told us that we needed to get my levels back to normal (which just meant increasing my dose) and then we could try IUI again. We were pretty discouraged, and at that point, I thought that we should pay the non-refundable adoption fee to be put on the waiting list. Tagg didn't think we should just yet, that we should wait and try IUI one more time once my levels were normal. So we waited. Well, one week later...our miracle happened. We were finally pregnant!! We were shocked and so was our Dr. There really should have been no way for me to be prego since my thyroid levels were whacky. We truly are so grateful to be able to go through this amazing experience. I was really sad at the same time though because I was really loving the possibility of adoption. Well, there it is, that's what finally worked for us. I hope that we won't have to go through infertility treatments again, it is such an emotional rollercoaster, and I have such a soft spot for those who have to experience it. I don't think people understand how hard it really is. I have never been so offended and hurt by some of the comments people made, but you just keep your head up and try and stay positive. Just as an update: My thyroid levels have been off since January and I've had to keep increasing my dose until this month. Hooray, it is finally normal. My pregnancy has been amazing so far. I haven't been sick at all, haven't even thrown up once! I'm counting my blessings (and crossing my fingers that the delivery will goes as smooth). I'm now 19 weeks and we find out what we're having tomorrow, we're so excited!! Oh, we have a family blog, there is a link on my blog, Williams Family Newsletter, and Tagg has put his version of how we got prego. The post is titled, Tagg-o Wagg-o Fam, it's pretty funny! Actually, I think he should be the one posting, he's so much more funny than I am. :o)