Tuesday, October 28, 2008

So adorable

Our little rocker girl! She'll be playing Rock Band with us in no time, right?
These are the most recent pics, just from Sunday. She finally fits into one of the many dresses she has. Don't you just love her little face? I can't get enough of her!!

I thought this pic was so sweet and had to post. She is getting so big, so fast! Everyone at church couldn't stop touching her hair. How do you nicely tell people to stop touching her dang hair...you're gonna mess it up. :o) Just teasing. She has so much hair, ya just can't resist putting you're fingers through it. So, Londyn is now 1 month old, I can't believe it. Where did October go? Londyn is so much fun. She is so alert and content. I've found that during her fussy hour at night, she likes to just lay down on her blanket and have her belly rubbed. She loves being talked to and loves to go for car rides. So, I mentioned before that Londyn loves her hair. Well, the other day she was laying on her blanket while I was getting ready, and all of a sudden she let out this monster cry. So, I ran to her and saw that she had a hand full of hair in a death grip. No wonder little one, sheesh. It was pretty funny though. She's done it a couple more times, maybe one day she'll learn not to pull so hard. :o) Thanks for all of the comments and calls regarding my last post. It really helps to know that I'm not alone. And yes, it has already started to get easier. I think we're finally getting used to each other. :o)

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Feeling inadequate

Today my baby is 4 weeks old. Where has this past month gone? I've found myself pondering a lot today and decided I needed to blog in hopes of getting some advice and maybe feeling like I wasn't alone on this. Do you ever feel inadequate? Last night was pretty rough. Tagg was in Arco all day and was only home for about an hour and a half before he left for his Basketball Game. I decided to stay home with Londyn since she had just fallen asleep when Tagg was getting ready to leave. Good thing I stayed home because not 20 minutes after Tagg left, the screaming began. Ususally she is a little fussy from 8:30 to 10:00 p.m., so I wasn't too surprised. But when she wouldn't nurse, wouldn't sleep, wouldn't cuddle, wouldn't bouce with me, all she did was scream bloody murder, I didn't know what to do! Tagg finally called to let me know he was on his way home, an hour and a half later, and I was tears and at my breaking point! I yelled at him and told him that he was selfish for leaving his wife and baby to go play basketball after only seeing us for a few hours the whole day! I feel bad for saying that to him now, but at the time, I was so mad that he wasn't there to help me...just to give me a break...and give Londyn a break. So, Tagg hurried home and wouldn't ya know it...Londyn fell sound asleep the second that garage door opened. You'd think I'd be relieved right? Nope. I then felt that Tagg probably thought I was crazy. And I, of course, gave him the cold shoulder, then let him know again what I thought about him leaving us. I felt so inadequate as a wife and mom! How could I be a mom that didn't know how to comfort her own baby? Why did I blame Tagg? I've thought that maybe I should go back to work instead of being at home, so she can have a break from me...but I couldn't bare the thought of someone else raising her! Nobody else would love her like I do! So, I've found myself on my knees, more in the last month than ever before. It's a lot harder being a mom than I ever thought, but so totally worth it. How do you other mom's make it look so easy? Your kids love you, your husband doesn't think your crazy, your houses are always clean, and dinner is always ready, how do you do it??? Luckily today was a better day. Tagg couldn't go to Arco today since the parts weren't in, so he was able to spend most of the day with Londyn and me. Thank heavens for new days...I had a new day to be a better wife and mom.

How can you not love this baby? Screaming or not, (preferrable not), Londyn...I LOVE YOU!!

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Can't get enough

What happens when your high school gets a turf football field? An Alumni Football Game. Yep, West Jefferson has a turf field, so the alumni came up with a way to play on it. They have a Charity football game where the proceeds went to help a kid from WJ with Medical Bills as he was diagnosed with Throat Cancer. This was the second year they did it, but the first for Tagg and Chad (Tagg's brother). They split the teams according to the year you graduated, so the odd years were the away team and the even years were home. Tagg and Chad graduated ten years apart and it was so fun to see them play a football game together. Chad took over as the QB and Tagg as a WR, and there was no stopping them. The only thing the other team could do was hit them hard and do a lot of trash talking. :o) Tagg and the odd years, won 26-12 I believe. Woohoo - way to go! But...was the sore knees, ribs, back, legs, arms, etc worth it? I guess so cuz Tagg and Chad both say they'll play again...they just can't get enough!

Friday, October 10, 2008

Diva or Ball Player?

Londyn turned two weeks old yesterday. Seriously, where does the time go? I am loving being a mom, but sheesh, it is a lot of work. These are just some things that I love and wanted to write down:

1. She wakes up at 3:00ish every morning, and I love this hour she's awake. It's such a quiet, peaceful hour for just the two of us. She's so alert; she's studying my face, as I'm studying her's.

2. Her hands. She LOVES her hands. I'm not sure if I mentioned this or not, but when Londyn was born, she managed to slide one of her arms out with her head. And I told Tagg, hopefully that doesn't mean she's a diva. And his reply was, Nope, she's going to be a Basketball Player, already practicing her shot. Anyway, she can't stand to have her arms swaddled, she always manages to wiggle both arms out and then her arms go straight by her face. It's adorable, and we love it. She's also discovered her hair. She'll reach up and just play with it. I think this is her telling me that the bows will not be staying in her hair for very long. :o)

3. Her grunting. She does this distinctive grunt that only her parents could love. :o)

4. Her facial expressions. I'm amazed at the time I spend just watching her.

5. I love the sweet spirit she brings to our home. Our home has been more peaceful and filled with love, even with the couple of rough nights of crying. I'm so thankful for such a wonderful husband and sweet little girl.

Friday, October 3, 2008

Londyn's One Week Birthday

My beautiful, sweet baby is one week old! I can't believe it, Oct. 2nd was my due date, and I can't believe she's been here for a week now. I told Tagg yesterday morning that we should put her back in my tummy and do it all over again. He said no, she's more fun out than she was in. :o) Anyway, yesterday was a big day for little Londyn. We started the day off by having Katie Wells take her newborn pictures. Katie posted a few of the cute pics on her blog, but I chose just a few to put on here. I think they turned out so cute!! You can go to katieportraits.blogspot.com to see a sneak peek of a few more. I can't wait to get the CD of all of the pictures, it is going to be so hard to choose which ones to print. Katie did an awesome job, I highly recommend her!! Londyn was kind of a stinker though. First, we took some family shots and then got Londyn undressed to take some pics with daddy, and sure enough...she peed, luckily only a little on Tagg, the rest on the floor. Then she was wide awake, kind of hard to take pics of a sleeping baby when she isn't sleeping! So, I nursed her and it seemed to work. But, when I went to put her in this bean bag thing, Londyn decided to poop. And oh did it go everywhere! I felt so bad, but Katie reassured us that everything was washable and not to worry. After getting things cleaned up, Londyn was wide awake again. We finally got her to sleep and Katie took some amazing shots! Oh, and Londyn's umbilical cord fell off! Tagg got a little panicked at that point since he made a deal with me that as long as I didn't make him change diapers until her cord fell off, he'd not complain about diaper duty. :o) Some things that Londyn has done this past week. At four days old, Londyn slept most of the day. She had her first visit with her Pediatrician. She had dropped a little in weight, which is normal I guess. So, she weighs 6 lbs. 9 oz. and is still 19 in. I let them know I thought she may be jaundice. They drew her blood, and we found out her levels were a little elevated. They said to keep her in the sun and they'll check the levels again in 24 hours. That night, Londyn was up crying off and on from 10 p.m. to 4 a.m. Tagg and I were pretty worried about our little girl, but all was well. Sept. 30th (day 5), got her tests back and she doesn't have jaundice! Hooray! Oct. 2nd (day 7), Londyn slept through the night! She was up from 9:30 p.m. till 1:00 a.m. but slept from 1:00 a.m. till 8:30 a.m. I am pretty sure this was a one time thing, maybe not, but it was sure nice to get a good night's rest! I guess she was exhausted from getting her pictures done.