Auction!

I'm doing an auction on my Facebook Page to help with the high costs of fertility treatments.  There has been so many donations, we are truly grateful for the support of our friends and family.  You can bid on these items by clicking this link: Auction!. To bid, simply enter your bid amount as a comment.  Bidding ends Sunday, March 31, 2013 at midnight (MST).

Thank you again!!

Blessed, but frustrated

Okay, so here's another reason that I'm back to blogging. I need an outlet! My poor hubby is probably beyond tired of hearing me complain, vent, and cry! I have been re-reading my posts/journal about getting pregnant with Londyn and it has left me with a lot of mixed emotions. I am, again, wanting a baby so badly it hurts! I'm digging myself into a hole where I don't want to come out. I have been getting some pretty outrageous comments lately or hearing of some that have been said about me and even though I tell myself that it doesn't matter, it hurts. I have realized that people aren't intentionally trying to hurt me or others going through infertility, instead they are simply ignorant. They don't know what it's like, even though they claim to know. If you got pregnant in months with NO fertility treatments, I'm sorry but, no...you don't know what I'm going through! Sure you may have some of the same feelings, but have you spent hundreds or thousands of dollars on Dr. appts, tests, ovulation kits, ultra sounds, shots etc.??? Do you have to remember to take your fertility pill on days 3-7 of your cycle? Then, remember to do your ovulation predictor kit which is super frustrating because it looks just like a freaking pregnancy test! Not only do you have to pee on the dang stick, but you want those two blue lines to tell you that you're ovulating. But not just any two lines, the one line has to be darker than the first line. Otherwise, you still haven't detected it. So, you have to continue for another day or two or three till you get a positive. It plays with your mind!! I get excited when I get two lines, but then remind myself that this isn't a pregnancy test!! And what about the humiliation of going through each round of IUI??? Not for just me, but for my husband??? Tagg is one amazing man! I don't know too many guys that would keep doing this!! So...if one more person tells me to relax, it'll happen when ya least expect it, I may just flick your mouth. Not really, but I may want to!! I read this fabulous artice, it said that relaxation may work for some couples. But, if you have tried for a year with no luck of getting pregnant, then relaxation is not what you need. You probably need fertility treatment and relaxation is NOT a medical cure!! So please, don't tell me to go on a vacation and relax!! It took 7 rounds of IUI to get Londyn. We just completed round 7 for baby #2...and now we wait to see if it worked. I'm not saying all of this for sympathy. I am not shy at all about talking about our journey with this, but I do hope that people will be more sensitive. There are so many people that have contacted me from my frustrated facebook posts, that I feel blessed to know that they feel like they can talk to me. It's nice to know that we're not alone and not the only one going through this!! A couple weeks ago, Londyn (my 3 year old daughter) came home from church asking where her brother and sister are. Apparently, they had learned about families in class and it broke my heart!! She is the only one in her class that doesn't have a sibling! She is going to make a fabulous sister one day! We hope that we will be able to have another child. I long to be pregnant again, for the miracle that it brings!! I long to have a newborn in our home again, to see my sweet Londyn with her brother or sister. I am very blessed. I have a beautiful, healthy daughter and a wonderful, loving, supportive husband. I am very thankful that I was able to experience motherhood at least once, it truly is a blessing in my life! I just have to say that I am frustrated. I am frustrated that we're going through this again. I'm mad. I have no control over this. It is what it is, I cannot change it, but I can accept it. It's hard, it's a rollercoaster, but it's my trial and I can do hard things....

Londyn turned 3!

Our very girly girl turned three! Thanks Melonie, for taking these cute pics of her!

So, sweet! She is very loving and kind hearted! She loves princesses and dressing up. She is super easy going and loves to learn new things. She is a curious and observant little thing! She gets her calm demeanor from her daddy and her picky, attention to detail, from mom. Londyn is a funny girl too, she loves to make you laugh and really is quite funny. She truly has brought us so much joy and laughter. We love you, Miss Londyn!

Thank you Brittney for this perfect princess cake!! She was SO excited about the crown and wand! I can't believe she's three!!

Family reunion 2011

The Williams Fam!! I love, love, love spending time with family!! And the Williams' know how to par-tay!! We have a family reunion every other year, and rotate on who plans it and they decide where we're going. This year we went to Island Park, it was fabulous! And just to explain Tagg's haircut...for the last 7 years of our marriage, he has been bugging me to buzz cut his hair. So, I finally just did it! Let's just say he hasn't bugged me to buzz it since. :)

Love this girl! She loved playing with her cousins! She played with hulu hoops, built sand castles, went boating, blew a ton of bubbles...or split them. :) We had a fun raffle where Pen and Taun created a trivia quiz and you got points for each question. Then, you could use those points to buy things that people brought in an auction style bid. It was fun to see the different things people wanted. A huge hit were my feather extensions that I brought. I think every grandchild and Aunt got feathers put in!

Journaling

Wow, I went a whole year without a single blog post! I guess I can fairly say that I got preoccupied with facebook and neglected my blog. So, please don't mind this super old post, yes it's the last few months of 2010.

What's hiding in the leaves???

Peek-a-boo, Ritzy!! Londyn playing with our kitten. I always told Tagg that if I ever saw a mouse in, around, by, near, the house that I would be getting a cat. Well, unfortunately that day came! Tagg was at ISP academy in Boise and I was just pulling into our house when I saw a mouse running across the street, toward our house. I freaked!! Later that day, we got Ritzy. :) This was in Sept. of 2010 in our Rigby house, we do not have Ritzy anymore. When we moved to Chubbuck, she kept running of to the neighbors and she is still there. (We don't mind!)

Londyn loved these teeth from Halloween. She would walk around growling at us, too cute!

Lou was a duck for Halloween. She absolutely loved walking around asking for candy!

Summer happened so fast...

This summer was so much fun with Londyn! She's at a fun age and does so many sillythings. So, this picture tells a funny story! With Tagg being gone, I've had the pleasure of taking care of the lawn and making it the greenest it's ever been! Sorry Tagg, but it's true, you kinda turned our yard into a brown, weed fest last year. :o) Anyway, I'm a perfectionist in a lot of things that probably doesn't matter. Sad, but I can admit it. Well, it takes me awhile to get the sprinklers set in just the right spot so that it waters the corners AND the flowers. So, I move the sprinklers around, run up onto the porch, stick my leg through the railing and turn the water on with my foot, run back onto the sidewalk to make sure it's where I want it. If not, I run back up and turn the water off and re-position them. I repeat this several times until the three heads are all in the right spot. Apparently, Londyn - being the observant child that she is - thought she could save me a few steps. :o) As I was re-positioning one of the heads, the water turns on! I scream, and back away, and then notice Londyn with her foot through the railing, turning the water on. Then, I hear laughter behind me, and see that Kris (our across the street neighbor) saw the whole thing. How embarrassing. I still can't believe that Lou could reach it and actually turn it on. The little stink! :o)



It's always fun to have cousins over! Luckily, Londyn has a few bikes to share. Indee even hopped on my bike and pulled Londyn and Mia behind her in the bike trailer. I was pretty impressed cuz it was a little big for her. If you know Indee though, you know that she was determined to do it! We sure wish we were staying here, these cute girls and family just moved to Ririe. And Penny & Eric finally moved back from Portland to Tetonia. So, we have been spending time with them and it's been a blast! At least we won't be too far away.



We've spent a lot of time on the phone with Daddy, too! Every time my phone rings, Lou rushes to it and says daddy, daddy, daddy until I answer it. I'm glad she's at this age while he's been away. She's not quite old enough to really realize that he's gone for so long. But yet, she's still at the age where she'll snuggle me so I'm not so lonely. :o)

P.O.S.T. and ATC

I've realized that I am WAY behind on blogging! I'm sure most of you know that Tagg has been hired to be a Trooper for Idaho State Police. It was a lengthy process, and it's a long training schedule, but it will be so very worth it in the end! Tagg began POST (it stands for Peace Officers Standards and Training, a.k.a. Police Academy) on July 19th in Meridian. He was there for 10 weeks. I must say, it really did go by quickly. He got to come home on the weekends, which of course flew by! He didn't get home on Friday night till about 9:30 and would have to leave on Sunday at 5p.m. Tagg was elected Class President, so he had to speak at graduation. He did a great job and we were so proud of him! Thank you, Jan and Jerry for coming and also to my mom and Grandma Sakota and Kris and Holly for driving there and back just for graduation! We really appreciate all of our families and friends support! Tagg was then able to come home and be with us for an entire week! We kept it very low key and just enjoyed having him home.

Now Tagg has started ATC, which is ISP's advanced training academy. It is BRUTAL!! They started with 9 officers for ISP, and before ATC even began on Monday, Oct. 4th, one quit that same morning!! Then, on Tuesday...Day Two, another one quit at noon!! Grr!! I know I have no clue how hard it really is, but quitting, really? I shouldn't judge, but considering the fact that Tagg almost didn't get hired really ticks me off. He was initially told no, they could only hire 8 and that he was #9 or 10 and they didn't have the budget for all of them. This is a long story, but I want to "journal" it. In addition to the 8 that they hired, they hired 4 laterals. Which means, these 4 were officers for different departments so they didn't have to go through POST, since they already had completed it. They just had to go through ATC. So, those 4 started ATC in March and two weeks into it, someone quit. Well, they called Tagg to see if he was still interested and he was hired! Good thing too! :o) They also decided to hire one more person, so that made 10 and 3 laterals. Well, the second week of POST, one of these 10 ISP guys also quit!! So, I'm just a little shocked that after such a grueling hiring process, someone would just drop out! I am just thankful that Tagg was hired and that he's doing so well. (And to think they almost passed him up) So, the upside to these last two that just quit, is that we may get to be in Region 5 instead of 4. That means, instead of Burley, we may be in Pocatello. (These two that quit were assigned to Poky.) And we could be assigned any city within the Pocatello Region, which could be as close as Shelley. So, that would be great...the closer to home, the better. Back to ATC, Tagg has said this is the hardest thing he's ever had to do! They yell at them and try and break them down. He's physically and mentally fatigued! He said the first day, they had to max out on Leg Presses. Then, the second day they had to do "Rabbit Runs." You start by all holding a rope, in a single file line and run. Then, the person in the back has to run to the front. They had to continue doing this for 2 miles. Ugh! They were up to a 6 mile run in POST and Tagg has heard that they'll finish ATC running 13 miles. ATC graduation will be Dec. 23rd, just in time for Christmas, YAY! Here's to hoping that these next 12 weeks fly by!